In this video, I share a moment when I was on a boat, fighting huge waves and trying to reach the shore before the storm hit. It reminds me of how life can feel when we’re overwhelmed.
As we get ready for Passover this weekend, I’m reminded that I just started reading the Bible as an adult in my 40s. Learning about the events leading up to Passover has opened my eyes to new insights. 🌅🔥
Over the past six years, I’ve felt a lot like Pharaoh, with a stubborn heart, not wanting to learn the lessons I needed. I’ve also felt like Moses, unsure why God believes in me to share my story.
Understanding the Celebration of Unleavened Bread, eating lamb, and the meaning of the blood mark above the doorway has made a difference for me. I even made a small sign with a blood mark by my door.
Even though God has helped me through so much, I still deal with the results of my choices. It’s important to go to Him first before making decisions, ask for forgiveness, and then accept it. Learning to let go is key as I work to be better.
Feeling Overwhelmed and Can’t Make It?
As I think about the biblical story of the 10 plagues during this Passover weekend, I see how they relate to my own challenges. Each plague reminds me of lessons I’ve learned over the years.
Plague of Blood: Just like the waters turned to blood, I’ve put a lot of effort into my business with blood, sweat, and tears—efforts I now realize I should have said “no” to.
Plague of Frogs: The overwhelming presence of frogs symbolizes all the distractions in my life. They remind me to let go of the unnecessary noise.
Plague of Gnats: These tiny annoyances reflect the small frustrations that build up when I ignore the signs. They remind me to deal with the little problems before they get bigger.
Plague of Flies: Just like the chaos that comes with flies, I’ve had times when everything felt out of control. I’m reminded to focus on what really matters and find clarity in the confusion.
Plague Against Livestock: Losing our fowl farm to disease was a heavy blow. This plague reminds me of how fragile life can be and how important it is to care for what we’ve been given.
Plague of Festering Boils: My husband, Bobby, went through a tough recovery after a 45-day hospital stay, battling a staff infection and ongoing issues with his immune system. This is a struggle that resonates deeply with me.
Plague of Hail: The harsh realities of owning a family business have hit hard, especially as we raise our kids who are growing into young adults. Change can bring both challenges and opportunities.
Plague of Locusts: It felt like everything we worked for was being destroyed. The constant challenges made us feel overwhelmed and disheartened.
Plague of Darkness: Darkness has affected our home, impacting our lives and spiritual well-being. We’ve faced depression, anxiety, and even suicide attempts. This reminds us to seek God and therapy and to come together as a family to fight these problems as a team.
Death: In the end, everything had to go and die. My failed business, the rush to grow too quickly, the closure of our fowl farm, and Bobby’s hospital stays have made me confront what truly matters.
While God has helped me through so much, I still deal with the consequences of my choices. It’s important to go to Him first before making decisions, ask for forgiveness, and then accept it. Don’t give up on the life you are working hard to make meaningful. Learning to let go is key as I strive to become who God says I am.